Lately I have been having these little moments of nostalgia…. you know the ones where a song will come on the radio or something flashes on the TV and you are suddenly transported back to another time and place of your younger years. And, for that brief moment you get to relive that memory… where everything, if just for a second, is so vivid and real.
I’m not quite sure when I actually grew up. Obviously it happened as I’m in my 40’s, married with three kids, and working full time to cover a mortgage and life in general. The fact that I can put moments of my life in increments of 20, 25, and 30 years is both shocking and a bit depressing. Some days it feels as if it were just yesterday that I went off to college, when in reality it was 25 years ago. My 20’s were 20 years ago. When patients ask me how long I’ve been “doing this” my answer is “over 20 years.” My oldest is going to be 14 this year. When I think about that I get emotional because I don’t know where the time went and I’m pretty sure I didn’t make the most of it like I should have.
As a kid time always seemed to “stand still.” Days dragged on and minutes felt like hours. How I wish that were the case today. As an adult the days rush into on another faster than I can keep up with, and the weeks become months and years in the blink of an eye. There are days when I long to be back in my 20’s and 30’s if only to enjoy the time I had a bit more. I’m not sure when living life started picking up such speed – maybe it came with each added responsibility – you know, car, house, marriage, kids, etc. But there are days where I feel as if life is flashing by and I’m just trying to hang on for the ride. Then a song will come on the radio and I am magically transported back in time….if only for a moment….